Letting go of anger, grudges and lust....

I never expected anything great would happen in the retreat in Tagaytay. All i thought the retreat would consist of something like a horrible mix of the Believe Youth Congress of 2008 and some major WWE-esque catfights, dogfights, street fights and all kinds of fights between SPC+Lipa against Lucena. But i was wrong...

During my stay in Tagaytay, i took a chance to let go of hard feelings, make new (unlikely) friends and enjoy the cold but gentle breeze of Tagaytay. It was a break away from problems at school, at home, the autosupply, internet, Tokio Hotel and some other things. There i lived in peace and joy with my classmates, Lipa pals and our newly befriended Lucena friends ala Big Brother.

There i let go of my past sins by confessing them all to the very kind and understanding priest who heard all of our confessions and advised us things. It was also there when God finally told me that it's okay for me to be a Harry Potter fan through the priest's advice to me. Now im convinced enough that that ignorant oaf Joma Villahermosa got nothing better to do in life so he just tell malicious lies about things, convince kids into the kind of ignorance and backwardness that belongs to the middle age and form a confounded group called "Kilusang kabataan para kay Kristo".
First, it was my dad who told me that being a Potter fan is okay just as long as it never affects my love for God at all and then now i confessed this one to the priest, well he told me the same thing- it's not sinful just as long as you still believe God is still the loving Almighty One Who can do everything and you believe magic is just plain fiction. Now that it's really the representative of Christ who told me about it, now i should be relieved and thank Him for being loving and understanding. My anger on Brother Jhoma finally let go and i forgive him- but i still hate him anyway for humiliating me in front of my schoolmates twice last year and still going around and babbling about Disney, Sesame Street or Pokemon being evil(I highly doubt when he was talking these nonsense in Hong Kong or Singapore, no one ever threw rotten dimsum nor "Hell bank notes" at him when he was delivering his speech. that gallows bird, that filibuster, anthracite, Ostrogoth, vandal).
Also, after i confessed, i noticed that when i was listening to Tokio Hotel(later that evening when we're about to sleep), i don't feel uncomfortable listening to them anymore. I think the reason why i feel so uncomfortable when i listen to Tokio Hotel before was that i did a lot of grievous sins particularly to Bill. I thought a lot of impure thoughts on him so bad that it's enough for him to wish that i'd die in a plane crash in the Himalayas and my body get eaten by the yeti. -lol. Seriously.
Other than letting go of bad things, intentions and thoughts, i also let go of personal grudge against the Lucena people. Back then, i used to think (and notice last sports fest) that the Lucena people are a bunch of mean Mary Sues who wanted all the attention, enemies, terrorists, glory, greatness, fame, power, magic powers, kilikili power, planets in the solar system and all things in them. I used to loathe them out of jealousy for being always first in games and competitions as well as T.Myn's favor.
But all these changed and me, my classmates and our Lipa mates were not the only ones who were affected by this and changed but also these Lucena people who were soon to be our friends.
The moment we met our facilitator ate Karen, a 33 year old woman who looks like the Filipino version of Sek Mei of Virtues of Harmony II, we received our retreat bags and there we found a piece of puzzle in each bag. All the different puzzle pieces form four pictures and those whose pieces forms into a picture with some other classmates shall be groupmates with them for the rest of the retreat. That means, those groupmates will be the ones who will be your groupmates in games, be with you on the same table when you eat, share stories about yourself and family, pray with you, console with you and do things together as a team. Good thing enough, GT and Angelou became my groupmates and also these three Lucena mates- Clifford, Claudine and Ivan. We are the fourth group and we are called "Alpha, Delta, Theta- Math in short" Sure enough, they became the people whom im always with throughout the retreat but i never expected that i'll get more close with GT as a best friend and be best friends with Angelou and most especially with Clifford, Claudine and Ivan. During the retreat, we shared and talk about a lot of things like Montessori here and Montessori there, their family, their lives, T.Myn, sir Manto, Rizelle, school life and such.
We were so attached to each other to the point when our retreat ended, we almost burst into tears upon separating. We all asked ourselves all these times we were in Montessori, why it's only now we're about to leave that we just discovered that we could be friends together?
Well, im happy that at least i'm about to leave Montessori discovering that the people whom i thought to be infidels were just like us.