Monday, December 28, 2009

I hate my family.... nope, im just upset

Ever since my mom passed away, i've been living under the communist dictatorship of my greedy, cunning, evil grandma who just think of money and ways to ruin my life as well as my sister's.
She's really a nightmare, honestly.
She is always the one who makes us endure the pains of being poor even though we have money enough for us to enjoy good food and comforts in life at the same time, enough money for the future. She is always been the one who would change everything just to satisfy all her idiotic whims. Then there is this dad who would rather betray us and rush at grandma's side than get angry at his neglectful mother who terrorize his kids.
Last december 26 in Baguio, my dad got sick(so he just stayed at the place where were staying at) and we were in SM Baguio. Dad promised us to eat dinner at Oh mai Khan later. When it was time for us to go, grandma suddenly threw a typhoon of arrogance that she changed the plans that we're just going to eat at home- with the confounded and cursed KFC takeout for dinner. Like for all those weekends that God has made, i endured eating that confounded fastfood that she really loved- and it's only once a year that we all get to eat proper food in a restaurant like Oh Mai Khan. And she just foiled our tradition away and made us follow her whims. I recalled that dad was feeling sick but still i had the need to talk to grandma about the previous plans. But then, my grandma had the total guts to put her fists on her waist and shouted at me as if i don't understand the whole situation. I just sat on a corner, too embarrassed to look at the confused onlookers and cried.
Then just a while ago, my dad asked me if what he was hearing about me was true. I told him and then i told him everything but still he sided on grandma and defended on the fact that im so selfish that i don't give a damn on him compared to grandma- who is always right and great, in fact she is always been greater than God(sarcastically speaking). And im so sensitive enough that it will give me a very hard time when im in Manila.
Right now, not only i have a tyrannical grandmother but i also had the worst father ever. I got the one who always promise me that he will protect me from those people who torments me, but look at what just happened, he didn't lived up to his promise of protecting me from my very mean grandmother. Sacrastically speaking, my dad is so great, very great not only he left me but he also had the guts to tell me i won't survive in Manila with me being so "emotional". When im in Manila, if someone was treating me like that, i could kick their arses anyway since they aren't that much important to me and if they are my professors and or employers, it's okay for them to treat me that since they are training, grading and paying me anyway.
For now, i just tell myself that i never chose dad to be my dad, most especially my grandma to be my grandma. I just don't understand why God would give me such people to be with each and everyday. But i still feel lucky that dad doesn't think of remarrying(if that happen, it'll be the death of me) and that my grandma is so old that it won't be long that she'll end up in pain at a certain ICU.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Not only they are TERRORISTS but they are RACISTS too, huh?

Hot, dark skinned, tanned, fashionable, sexy, wavy haired, model-type, patient, feminine and rather bitchy.
The kind of girl some Tokio Hotel fan girls would want for Bill Kaulitz. Someone who's like Beyonce, Rihanna, Chanel Iman or Kim Kardashian- best known for being oh-so fashionable and downright lascivious to the point they already hooked up with loads of guys.
While everybody knows the kind of girl Bill would want is an understanding, talkative, spontaneous girl who looks like Ashley Olsen( as much as possible is a German who can speak in German or live in another country who can speak in German). Some TH fans still press their desires really hard and even think Bill's preference is ugly compared to their choice for him. They wanted to see him live, make babies and drink milk with a bitchy, tanned gallows bird who isn't exactly his type of girl.

While they flame and disagree on the type of girl Bill would be infatuated with, the worst is that when someone says that a very pretty Asian chick(e.g Yubin of Wonder girls, Linda Chung, Maggie Cheung Ho Yee circa Old time buddy, the Japanese singer one TH fan talked about some time ago) would look cute with Bill. Seriously, a lot would flame and throw off evil comments saying that "Bill doesn't like girls who have small eyes" and those sort of stuffs.
What the hell is that all about? I don't remember Bill saying or implying that otherwise im not listening to "World behind my wall" right now since Bill is such a skin-headed, misguided moron whose line of thinking about humans is from fifty decades ago. That means naive Herge from the racist 1920s had more sensitivity about racism than them.

The truth is, i don't know how on earth those confounded "fans" ever thought that Bill is better off with someone who doesn't really capture much of his fancy. Huh, as if those Bashi-bazouks knew Bill better than Bill knew himself... It's just like pairing Harry Potter off with Madame Rosmerta or Dumbledore with Sybill Trelawney. If they are really fans, they should accept and respect Bill's preferances or what other's opinions are. They shouldn't really force other people about what they want. Thank God, none of them ever became Bill Kaulitz or else if he does hook up with such an ostrogoth, i would rather die in a plane crash in the Himalayas than hear that on the Tokio Hotel Network. =p

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Jamie Wong

Jamie Chariss Wong Gwai Fei (Simplified Chinese: 王桂菲) is the titular character and protagonist from the Harry Potter fan fiction "Die Welt von Jamie Wong" by Potterforumista Irish Uy. The story covers the life of the 16 year old Chinese witch who lives in Hamburg, Germany with her father and her exploits from living life the muggle way until she found herself to have changed her path set into the wizarding world instead.
When the story started, Jamie was a witch who lives life like a German muggle and at the same time studies wizardry under the guidance of her dad Percy. To aid her more in her wizarding studies, her dad gave her his old timeturner so she can study wizardry and at the same time do her muggle activities. She attends the muggle Hamburg Central High School where she had Raimund Jost, a closeted gay friend of Jamie who claims he wanted to be a doctor but inside wanted to become a fashion designer. In Hamburg Central, she excels in mathematics(which is the only muggle talent she considered having), having trouble in Physics and facing her worst enemy Aslana Gecim, who also turned out to be a wizard(neither witches knew if one was a witch and vice versa). Aslana was a hot looking, frivolent and lewd witch who happens to be the daughter of a top German model and a Turkish manager of a record company who are both wizards.
Aslana used to be Jamie's best friend until Jamie got tired of her and saved Raimund from being bullied by her. Since that day, they became worst enemies. Aslana also happened to have a crush on Jamie's celebrity crush, the frontman of the band Die Argyles: Johannes Trumper. One day, Aslana exposed to everyone a muggle picture of her being with Johannes in a bar, which left Jamie into tears and outright jealousy towards Aslana. When she got home, her dad told her that they'll be going on a roadtrip to London this summer. On their way to London, Jamie showed her sudden distaste of Die Argyles and that shocked her dad. What shocked him more was that Jamie's crush had a relationship with Aslana from what Aslana proved to everyone and back then Jamie and Percy both believed that Aslana was a muggle. Percy just comforted his sobbing daughter by telling her that it's an inevitable situation that people having crushes face and he too felt as bad as her when he was a teenager. Then they passed by Brussels(where they met Tintin, Snowy, Captain Haddock, Prof. Calculus and many others-just kidding), Paris(where they saw Julien and Zhang Chongren- again, just kidding) and some other notable European towns and cities before arriving in London a few days later. In London, Jamie's heartbreak became more painful as she read a blog post by Aslana about Johannes. But her melodramatic moment did not last long when her German OWL results and *gasp* a letter from Hogwarts arrived and there Jamie made up her decision to leave behind her muggle dream of becoming a pilot and opt for a wizarding career instead.
The next morning, Jamie broke in the news with her dad as well as her decision. Her dad was happy about it so they went to Diagon Alley for school supplies. On their way to the Magical Menagerie, they bumped and met their long lost Aunt Cho Chang, who was a lonely and heartbroken witch. Aunt Cho found Jamie a cat that really reminded her of Harry Potter so she named it Harry.
One night later in London, Jamie opened her myspace again after quite some time. To her surprise, she read a blog post made by Aslana in which she told that Johannes was thankful that despite having bitchy fans(particularly a Cantonese speaking girl who had a very confusing Chinese name-pertaining to Jamie), he was thankful that he had Aslana who understands him.
Despite being so distraught and depressed with what she heard about Johannes and Aslana, her spirits soared when she realized she is about to leave behind the unkind muggle world she lived in and move on with the world she belonged in- the wizarding world.
When she was in Hogwarts, she was sorted in Gryffindor where she met and befriended Tahsin Bouvier, Rosly Kiorsly and Keith Hutchins. During the quidditch team audition, Jamie noticed a loner girl who strikingly look like Johannes. Tahsin told Jamie that her name is Audrie Trumper and she's a girl who just couldn't say no to trouble(at least she can say no to drugs!!). Then that afternoon, Keith-the Gryffindor quidditch captain- released the results and Jamie was surprised that she made it in the team along with Tahsin and Audrie.
Later that night in the Gryffindor common room, Jamie confronted Audrie out of anger for Johannes and there Jamie got to know the truth- Johannes and Aslana aren't together. In fact they're worst enemies and that they are wizards like them. After some clarifications, Jamie and Audrie became friends and Audrie joined in Jamie's group of guy pals while Jamie moved in Audrie's dormitory. Back in Hamburg, Raimund can't take the pain of long distant friendship with Jamie so he stopped talking with her, Aslana was stunning spell was backfired after attempting to make Johannes fall for her and it was revealed that Johannes is studying to be an auror, Ian is a squib and he is Johannes' best friend.
After a Gryffindor victory over Ravenclaw, the latter's team captain, Mikey Moon, provoked some trouble with Audrie which ended up in a midnight duel. Audrie picked Jamie to be her partner, who is reluctant about joining the fray. Mikey picked Juli Tamatree, a fifth year girl who is good friends with Frankie, Dylan, Amy and the other good Ravenclaws. During dinner, Audrie was bothered by her conscience so she decided to go on her own and leave Jamie out of it. But in the last minute, Jamie recalled what Audrie did for her so she joined in the fray so she can protect Audrie. In the duel, Mikey had Juli do most of the duel but in the end, Juli gave up because their fight is none of her business and the prefects' bathroom benefit will only last her for this year because Mikey is a seventh year. Then the four got detention from Prof. Moody and Prof. Hale. While Jamie and Audrie were sorting out the potions ingredients of Professor Hale, Jamie tells Audrie the story of her past with Aslana. After that, the two overheard Prof. Hale and Shana talking about an exclusive Christmas party in Hogsmeade. After that, Professor Hale saw the potions stock well organized so she invited the two to her Christmas party just as long as they keep it a secret to the whole school. They agreed.
One day, Jamie received a letter from sir Listing that Raimund doesn't want to talk to her anymore. This brought Jamie into tears, which lead Audrie into inviting her cousin and Die Argyles in Prof. Hale's Christmas party and arranging Jamie a blind date with Johannes. At the Christmas party, the two met and they fell in love with each other.
Then after some teenage melodrama in both Hamburg and Hogwarts are solved, Aslana discovered that Ian is Johannes' best friend and then she kidnapped the poor squib and used veritaserum to torture him. Then she went on to kidnap Audrie and assault Jamie in Hogsmeade. A few days after Audrie's disappearance, Jamie and friends received a letter from Aslana with a riddle saying she got Audrie, Ian, the what and the ways on how to get them back safely. With the use of Beedle the Bard's mysterious statue, they snuck out to London via Floo network but they ended up in Aunt Cho's, where Keith stunned aunt Cho after seeing them.
After following the statues of Asha, Athelda and Amata around London, they ended up in Islington- where Die Argyles are going to have a concert. Then there they met Aslana with Audrie and Ian tied up. Aslana was about to kill them all off if Johannes, Tahsin, Die Argyles and some aurors like Auror Potter and Weasley. Then they caught Aslana and freed Audrie and Ian. Before the concert started, Jamie and Johannes snogged in his dressing room.
The next day, Audrie arrived in Hogwarts which shocked Hogwarts- although it was said in the Daily Prophet and the Quibbler that Audrie is free and Ian is found.
Then in Platform 9 and three quarters, Jamie met her dad, aunt Cho and Raimund, with Raimund saying sorry to her. Then there she also met Audrie's family and then Johannes.
The epilogue shows Jamie with Johannes and her dad in the Wongs' home in Kowloon. The ending shows Jamie and Johannes being happy together. All was well.



What can i say about Jamie??
Jamie is more like a bff to me that i always take good care of. I treat her more than Raimund, Audrie, Johannes would combined. I groom her, feed her, protect her and be with her when she is down like she was my long time best friend. She is always there to understand my problems and my thoughts. When TH fan girls tell me that Bill would never hook up with nerdy, East Asian girls and opt for dark-skinned fashionistas instead, Jamie is there to comfort and tell me that those girls have no rights to tell me that since no one knows how Bill's mind go but Bill himself. When i feel so sad about my family, she's always the one who would tell me that she too also lost a mom and things will eventually get well in the end. Now i let her go with Johannes, Harry the cat, her dad, Aunty Cho and all her other relatives and friends happily by her side, i face the future with unknown dangers lurking around. I hope that Jamie will still inspire me to stay as i am even if the worse will come.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Letting go of anger, grudges and lust....

I never expected anything great would happen in the retreat in Tagaytay. All i thought the retreat would consist of something like a horrible mix of the Believe Youth Congress of 2008 and some major WWE-esque catfights, dogfights, street fights and all kinds of fights between SPC+Lipa against Lucena. But i was wrong...

During my stay in Tagaytay, i took a chance to let go of hard feelings, make new (unlikely) friends and enjoy the cold but gentle breeze of Tagaytay. It was a break away from problems at school, at home, the autosupply, internet, Tokio Hotel and some other things. There i lived in peace and joy with my classmates, Lipa pals and our newly befriended Lucena friends ala Big Brother.

There i let go of my past sins by confessing them all to the very kind and understanding priest who heard all of our confessions and advised us things. It was also there when God finally told me that it's okay for me to be a Harry Potter fan through the priest's advice to me. Now im convinced enough that that ignorant oaf Joma Villahermosa got nothing better to do in life so he just tell malicious lies about things, convince kids into the kind of ignorance and backwardness that belongs to the middle age and form a confounded group called "Kilusang kabataan para kay Kristo".
First, it was my dad who told me that being a Potter fan is okay just as long as it never affects my love for God at all and then now i confessed this one to the priest, well he told me the same thing- it's not sinful just as long as you still believe God is still the loving Almighty One Who can do everything and you believe magic is just plain fiction. Now that it's really the representative of Christ who told me about it, now i should be relieved and thank Him for being loving and understanding. My anger on Brother Jhoma finally let go and i forgive him- but i still hate him anyway for humiliating me in front of my schoolmates twice last year and still going around and babbling about Disney, Sesame Street or Pokemon being evil(I highly doubt when he was talking these nonsense in Hong Kong or Singapore, no one ever threw rotten dimsum nor "Hell bank notes" at him when he was delivering his speech. that gallows bird, that filibuster, anthracite, Ostrogoth, vandal).
Also, after i confessed, i noticed that when i was listening to Tokio Hotel(later that evening when we're about to sleep), i don't feel uncomfortable listening to them anymore. I think the reason why i feel so uncomfortable when i listen to Tokio Hotel before was that i did a lot of grievous sins particularly to Bill. I thought a lot of impure thoughts on him so bad that it's enough for him to wish that i'd die in a plane crash in the Himalayas and my body get eaten by the yeti. -lol. Seriously.
Other than letting go of bad things, intentions and thoughts, i also let go of personal grudge against the Lucena people. Back then, i used to think (and notice last sports fest) that the Lucena people are a bunch of mean Mary Sues who wanted all the attention, enemies, terrorists, glory, greatness, fame, power, magic powers, kilikili power, planets in the solar system and all things in them. I used to loathe them out of jealousy for being always first in games and competitions as well as T.Myn's favor.
But all these changed and me, my classmates and our Lipa mates were not the only ones who were affected by this and changed but also these Lucena people who were soon to be our friends.
The moment we met our facilitator ate Karen, a 33 year old woman who looks like the Filipino version of Sek Mei of Virtues of Harmony II, we received our retreat bags and there we found a piece of puzzle in each bag. All the different puzzle pieces form four pictures and those whose pieces forms into a picture with some other classmates shall be groupmates with them for the rest of the retreat. That means, those groupmates will be the ones who will be your groupmates in games, be with you on the same table when you eat, share stories about yourself and family, pray with you, console with you and do things together as a team. Good thing enough, GT and Angelou became my groupmates and also these three Lucena mates- Clifford, Claudine and Ivan. We are the fourth group and we are called "Alpha, Delta, Theta- Math in short" Sure enough, they became the people whom im always with throughout the retreat but i never expected that i'll get more close with GT as a best friend and be best friends with Angelou and most especially with Clifford, Claudine and Ivan. During the retreat, we shared and talk about a lot of things like Montessori here and Montessori there, their family, their lives, T.Myn, sir Manto, Rizelle, school life and such.
We were so attached to each other to the point when our retreat ended, we almost burst into tears upon separating. We all asked ourselves all these times we were in Montessori, why it's only now we're about to leave that we just discovered that we could be friends together?
Well, im happy that at least i'm about to leave Montessori discovering that the people whom i thought to be infidels were just like us.