Yeah... it's official, Xurt and Wendy are "mag on" or aka together now. Yes, i cried all night the moment i heard the news but eventually i became alright. I bet Wendy's posse, Abby, Elyzza and Kassel, were so proud with their achievement of helping out Wendy win over Xurt that their testosterone and pride were satisfied for an hour and in Abby and Kassel's part, they were prouder of this so-called achievement than the fact they both passed the UPCAT. As the months go by, i see them professing their love for each other by their profile pics (In Wendy's pic, she was like wearing a "Diaz" shirt and Xurt with both hands with fingers forming "W"). One of Xurt's pics even made Xurt look like a jerk in the current Third Year's way of thinking. Their judgment over poor Xurt was really harsh that they call him "Wow Ulam". I feel quite sad for him that i wanted to lash back at them "So, kung yun naman ang gusto ni Xurt na iparating kay Wendy na pagmamahal, pabayaan nyo nalang sya". And last, last, last(i dunno, but it coincided with my mom's third death anniversary when i saw it) week, i found out that i was being unfriended by Xurt on FB. It turned out that Xurt and Wendy had an argument about me, according to Dale when i told him the miserable thing that happened. I never poked into their monkey business ever since they've hooked up, why on earth will they fight over me and eventually have me unfriended by Xurt?! By the way Xurt treated me, they probably had a fight really much intense that i never such had when i was still the apple of Xurt's seemingly Chinese eyes- According to my Lit 14 prof yesterday, your crush or significant other usually share a lot of characteristics that you like with your mom(if youre a guy) or your dad(if you're a girl). That thing is called "Oedipus Complex". It was probably much more intense than the "Kaye issue" we had before. Speaking of Kaye, i remember when i still knew his password, i came upon his messages and one of his messages(dating from march 2010) was from Kaye Macalalad, his old crush. Kaye got a boyfriend in Switzerland, which left Xurt devastated. When Xurt found out that she got a boyfriend, she said sorry to him. And while he was having a broken heart, he told Kim Macalalad, his friend who got a crush on him back then, told her of his woes. After all of what happened to them, they still remained friends.
It could be terribly hard for Xurt back then, but if he was to read this blog post right now(which i think he will never do), he would tell me that i will eventually find a guy better than him just like what happened to him with Kaye(pshhh... Kaye is WAY BETTER than Wendy). His problem back then is probably nothing compared with the way he is treating me now. When he hooked up with Wendy, unlike Kaye, he doesn't mind those around him. When Kaye hooked up with her boyfriend, she said sorry to Xurt. When he hooked up with Wendy, unlike Kaye, i got unfriended. When Kaye hooked up with her boyfriend, she did not unfriend Xurt. The only person i know that he unfriended was his father, so if he's treating me the way he's treating his father, then i would treat him they way i treat my father. He might say if ever he knew how i reacted with this shit of his, "I did this because Wendy is super way better than you, that you are a notorious "Selosa" that you made selos on Kaye and Wendy while Wendy only became selosa on you, and why would I go back to you? blah bla blah blah blah blah..."
It's not the point, the number of the people i've been jealous with doesn't matter but it's how we dealt with the issues thrown at us. My jealousy with Kaye went away when Xurt once told me that he and Kaye are not compatible enough while me and him are compatible. After him saying that, i don't feel heavy and troubled about Kaye anymore. And that peace of mind had no unfriending and frenzied downpour of affection with lots of effort in Xurt's part involved.
It could be a bit immature to do so, but i felt that this is the way to get over him once and for all. And it will not be as harsh as the third years'. I plan to write on my reflection paper about my heartbreak with Xurt and how i am making progress in getting over him. I will write as if he will not come back and i will write all my heart out just to get myself a B+ or an A and move on as i move on with my bleak but interesting freshman year. After all, a reflection paper is all about pouring in your feelings to make yourself feel better.
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Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Chapter 9- "How I met Johannes"
Chapter 9- "How I met Johannes"
Original title: "How Johannes met Aslana"
Two weeks had passed since Jamie and her dad Percy arrived in England. They already went as far as Edinburgh in Scotland. Jamie was still calling Raimund regularly, she even rang him while she was in the Buckingham Palace some two days after she went to Diagon Alley. Raimund was staying over at his cousin Veronica at her apartment in Charlottenburg in Berlin for a week. Sometimes aunt Cho would come along with them and show them around her favorite places to go in England, from muggle shopping centres in Glasgow to wonderful wizarding places like Godric's Hollow. In about two weeks, Jamie will have to say goodbye to hes dad, Raimund, Aslana and Johannes(in Jamie's relief) and her sort of afflicted life living like a muggle.
"Dad, how can i explain this to Raimund and the others?" Jamie asked her dad as they were driving with aunt Cho around London on a clear but cloudy afternoon. Jamie never told about this to her friends, even to her best friend Raimund. But she must find a potential excuse why she is leaving them behind in Hamburg to study in a British wizarding school. Raimund might will sad when she'll announce this to him, since Jamie is his only closest best friend for years and the only female friend that he can open up his feminine side with. They'd been together through tears and laughter for many years and they loved each other like siblings so that made Jamie worry about Raimund when she is gone even if she's away for probably a year, what will happen to Raimund? she badly thought.
"Hun, are you worried about Raimund?" Percy concernly asked because he feels like Jamie was worried about her long time best friend. "Who's Raimund?" aunt Cho asked curiously, "Jamie's muggle best friend from Hamburg." Percy said, then Jamie turned her head at him and nodded. "Well, don't worry about him. i'll just tell him that you're going to an English boarding school that is very isolated and got no internet connection. instead i'll tell him that if he got something that he needs to tell or bring you, he'll have to write you a letter or put in a parcel and give it to me. If he asked the address of the school, i'll just tell him that the school is very strict that parents are the only ones who are allowed to write to the students." Percy said, then aunt Cho added "But a lot of changes happened in the wizarding world that now you can surf the internet in Hogsmeade but you can't send an "email" to a muggle for security reasons.", "Gosh, i didn't know that..." Percy said and at the same time snapped his right fingers.
Night time came and Jamie was again surfing the internet in her macbook inside the hotel room. Everytime she would surf the internet, her heart pounds fast, her palms sweat and feel heavy on the inside especially when she is seeing the primary photo of Aslana in the arms of Johannes in her myspace. Even though, surfing the internet is a very painful thing to do for Jamie at the moment, she feels like she needed to surf the internet before she'll move away to Hogwarts-where her muggle gadgets like her macbook and T moble sidekick II would go haywire. Then some 15 minutes later, Jamie read on her myspace home that a new blog post was added on Aslana's myspace blog. Then, in a mad rush of curiousity and jealousy, Jamie quickly went to Aslana's blog and read it, her heart beats faster and her palms sweated more. Oh my gosh, (not) another blog post about Johannes!!! Jamie thought. Indeed, it was another blog post about Johannes, and there are so many comments on the blog post. and mind you that they are hate comments from angry and ignorant fans of Johannes, those who refused to believe and accept the hard truth about Johannes eventually having a girlfriend after more than five years since he became famous. Maybe everybody knows now that they're together? Jamie wondered. then she opened another tab in her browser and looked for "Johannes Trümper" in google. It was really true that Johannes had a girlfriend and it was really Aslana. The German news Bild announces it, as well the French celebrity tabloids, and of course, an article on Johannes by Bravo-a German teens magazine. Jamie might have never heard of these news since she was in England for two weeks and Die Argyles arent that much big in that country compared to France and Germany, but she never feel overwhelmed now that the news had now leaked across and confirmed. Jamie also feels sorry for the girls who just got to know this sad news that she knows for a long time. She went back to Aslana's blog and read the new blog post:
"How Johannes met Aslana"
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Now everyone knows that me and the very famous Johannes Trümper are together, but no one knows how and why we met and how we got together. now ladies and gentlemen, read along the story of how Johannes met and fell for me.
It all started in Hamburg some months ago when my friends Denise and Mara are clubbing along in St. Pauli when Johannes and his band, Die Argyles, went there after their hard-rocking, sold-out concert in Hamburg. While i was strutting out on the dance floor and my friends are drinking Margaritas and flirting out with some guys, Johannes went to the dance floor after drinking some cocktails in the bar. Of course im been such a big fan of his, i took this oppotunity to talk to him in person. He was there, wearing an Ed Hardy tshirt, a black Faith Connection cap, black Diesel jeans and Chanel shades with his hair down so many can't recognize him but i did. i went up near him and said "hi". he was having a frown upon his face until my cheerful "hi" made him smile and told me "hi" as well. then he asked me to dance with him and of course, i said yes so we danced around the floor, me lap dancing around him. Then my friends left early with their dates and (thankfully) Johannes' drunk and foolish bandmates, so that leaves only me and Johannes. Johannes brought me a drink and then we talked about things in our lives for hours. That is when i first got to know the shocking truth that Johannes has been ill-treated by his attention-seeking bandmates and greedy management. like i said on my last post, i feel sorry for Johannes with his bandmates, management, fans, paparazzis and such(the hell with them!!!). Speaking of hell-worthy fans, i told him about his other fans being obsessed with him like my freaky little schoolmate who calls herself Jamie from China or something(i think her real name is some Chinese something that is confusing as Confucius). i told Johannes that she thinks she can stand a chance with Johannes but hell no, she is wrong!! Johannes told me that he hates girls who are so like her- super ambitious, arrogant, smells like math books with joss incense and ... just plain weird. he said that her head is like hanging above the clouds like she feels she'll eventually become his girlfriend. "duh, as if she's my type, she definately not my type!!! what a stupid, little b*tch she is!" Johannes said as he drank his vodka sunrise, "Im so glad i never met her... i bet she's one of the worst lookin' girls i'll ever see in my whole entire life. i never knew there are fans as worse as her. if the other fans are so bad enough-chasing me around the malls, fainting when they see me, and other stupid things- what's more if i come across her?! anyway, i hate all of them-those fans, bleeh...." he added.
Then he took me in his hotel room and there i discovered Johannes, not androgynous and charming Johannes Trümper of Die Argyles who often appear on Viva or MTV on my TV. we first had a very hot and sensual make-out with each other by the bed. and then, we made love. my skin touches his and it was blissful. my old obsession turned into something i might preferably call love. Even though the Johannes that im always crazy about is different from this Johannes, i think im falling head over feet for him and i know he feels the same way.
Currently listening to: Lucky(DJ Kamikaze version) Britney Spears
"See i told you Johannes is lashing you out as well!!!" Percy angrily said as he got to read Aslana's blog post in Jamie's macbook, he was furious especially with Johannes' unfair judgement over Jamie. Jamie was uncontrollably sobbing on her aunt's shoulders for the past ten minutes since she read Aslana's tragic news about her. "There, there Jamie...at least he haven't said something worse than that... " Aunt Cho affectionately said. "My daughter never did anything bad to him and he never knew her in person as well so how dare he to call my Jamie something as harsh as that!!!" he exclaimed, his face very red with anger. "Perce, just calm down... only God can judge people. in fact i bet that Johannes was really insensitive and unethical...", "...or this Aslana had put some magic involved in this. She might have used Amortentia in Johannes' drink, magically modified the picture or any other things that made this look real." Aunt Cho suspected, making Percy and Jamie turn their heads on her as if she said something that makes her sound as if she was crazy and out of her mind. "What?! but Aslana's a muggle, auntie..." Jamie tearfully exclaimed "...so that means the former is more acceptable, it's more credible than the latter." she added. "Absolutely not..." Cho said, "Sometimes, wizards aren't allowed to call themselves as wizards to other fellow wizards especially if one is of minor age and has been punished by the Ministry of Magic for almost doing something as bad as throwing off an unforgivable curse. i know that is implemented by the German Ministry of Magic."
in Germany, you can do magic at muggle places just as long as you can explain or make a credible excuse to a muggle if one witnessed magic being done, like in Jamie's case when she opened her house's door with Raimund.
"Probably true. but Aslana- a witch? no way, nah-uh!!" Jamie bellowed. "Calm down Jamie, it doesn't mean what i said is true... i just kinda feel like Aslana is probably a witch. This news just popped out of nowhere and i read in Die Argyles' fan forums that no one, not even the management ever saw Johannes being with Aslana and there is no proof that Johannes himself confirmed it. So Aslana's prolly making this up-", "-what about the pictures?! some months ago, i saw her holding up a picture with her and Johannes in our school.", "Listen Jamie, i hate to tell you this but maybe she modified a picture with magic, so get it?" Aunt Cho exclaimed, then there was a moment of silence among Jamie, Percy and aunt Cho.
"Anyway, i really wished i never became a fan of Johannes at all. i regretted it very deep ...i wish i never been... so he wouldn't have those stupid, little, b*tches like me for fans. but it's a shame that one part of my life he gave me a kind of emotional gift with his songs when i was still trying to adjust with my strange, new life in Germany and especially the loss of my mum back in China. his poignant but powerful music assured me everything will be alright even if my life was flipped upside down... his sense of style made me feel that i am not the only one who is sporting my own style that used to be mocked at before Johannes became famous, therefore not making me feel weird anymore, his fashion sense is almost same as mine. and the kindness and gratefulness he showed for his fans in his interviews, concerts and such- made me feel that im important to him as a fan.... but all of these..." Jamie bellowed, making Percy and Cho look at each other with sympathy for a shamelessly sobbing Jamie in front of them. "Although Aslana was also infatuated with him from the start, it didn't stopped me from liking him and his music, but now i know the truth- Johannes is not real. he's just an act played by a poor but insensitive guy who.... just played out with my feelings and with loads of other fans." Jamie sniffled and wiped her tears, finally confessing all her chagrin and anguish out.
"Jamie, i am so sorry about Johannes." Raimund said on the phone as he and Jamie talked, "I already know about this ever since you arrived in London. i was in Berlin with my cousin Veronica at that time you called from Buckingham remember? As i opened my myspace that morning, well i was really mad when i read that, now i really hate Die Argyles and especially Johannes for calling you that. im not sure with Henri, Dean and Inah, prolly when they got to know this they'll start to hate him too. thought you might get hurt at the wrong time when i told you about Aslana's horrendous blog post. what a git Johannes is that told Aslana you're that, just don't get too depressed by what he said, it doesn't matter. i was kinda planning to tell you about it after you come back here but you got to know." , "i won't be coming back here for long really..." Jamie bitterly said, then Raimund gasped loudly and then there was a moment of silence. "What?! why... what....er... how come?" Raimund asked, his trembling voice and difficulty of finding words to say made it obvious that he was shocked by the news. "Long story, but one day i received a letter from a British boarding school that i was accepted in their school, i never took any tests though, in fact i never sent anything to them.", "Maybe it was sent to you by mistake...", "No, it was addressed to me- Jamie Chariss Wong- obviously there are no other Jamie Chariss Wong in this world other than me right?", "So, i'll never get to see you again for how long?" Raimund asked in a woeful voice, "maybe about a year, i promise i'll be back in summer or if im lucky, earlier than that- on Christmas break. C'mon you're not the only one who's sad about this-im also sad about it because we'll gonna be separated but don't you worry i'll write to you every week if i can. Dad will just give the letter to you coz only parents can write to students there, and if you had something for me, just hand it over to dad and he'll send it for me.", "then that's good..." Raimund said, "...now i understand everything, but im gonna miss you, Jamie." he added, his voice getting back to it's cheery self. whew... what a relief, Jamie thought. "and im gonna miss you too, Raims." she sweetly said.
Two weeks passed, Jamie was on Kings' Cross station with her dad and Aunt Cho on a monday morning. Jamie was pulling her trolley and Harry was sleeping soundly on the top of the trunk. "Sigh, september 1. this is it..." Jamie said as they come near platforms 9 and 10. In Germany there are also magical platforms like on old train stations in Munich, Berlin, Leipzig and Halle as well as subway stations in Kowloon leading to magical places like Hogwarts. Harry opened his green eyes and jumped over the trunk to aunt Cho's arms as Jamie prepared herself to run into platforms 9 3/4. she closed her eyes, counted one to three and ran as fast as she could. she opened her eyes and discovered herself to be in an old, Victorian train station full of witches and wizards but this time, it's also full of young, teenaged wizards like her and a very old fashioned train that had a sign "Hogwarts Express". Jamie gave her trolley to her dad and he unloaded it on the train and aunt Cho gave Harry back to Jamie. "You take care of yourself..." aunt Cho smiled, "Of course, i would...", "I can't believe it, my little Jamie is moving away from me for the first time, but hey at least you're 16 and two years from now you'll be an adult but don't fret Jamie dear, when i go home i might kick Johannes' arse faster than he can say "Nach Dir Kommt Nichts", or maybe not. But surely i'll make you and Raimund keep in touch with as much as possible." Percy assured, aunt Cho laughed and then said "Just forget about him and all those things. man, you really needed a break away from them. don't try to remember those things while you're in Hogwarts okay?", "Okay auntie, you'll write to me as well?", "ah of course, i'll be writing regularly, asking how are you doing there." Cho said, then the clock striked 11 and the train began to move, "Okay, bye dad... bye aunt Cho... see you maybe on the Christmas break or surely in summer." Jamie waved to them as she climbed inside the packed train, she made her way to the crowd and peered in a window, her dad and aunt waving at her and she waved back. moments later, Percy and Cho turned back and apparated after the Hogwarts train moves away from platform 9 3/4. Jamie carried her cat Harry on her left arm and then she quickly found an empty compartment. She sat by the windows and saw the scenery of London moving a bit fast. She then thought at least she's about to forsake her problems living life like a muggle. she's about to abandon Aslana, Johannes and their menacing friends and forget about them but Jamie also have to say goodbye to her faithful friends like Raimund, Henri, Dean and Inah but she won't have to forget about them at all. Feeling half eager but half anxious, she wondered what fate would bring her when she goes to start her new life in Hogwarts. of course there will be the good and the bad things but she wondered what are those in Hogwarts. She leaned her head on the glass and contemplated about how will her life be in Hogwarts as the train moved fast leaving the city of London behind, into the vast and green English contryside.
Original title: "How Johannes met Aslana"
Two weeks had passed since Jamie and her dad Percy arrived in England. They already went as far as Edinburgh in Scotland. Jamie was still calling Raimund regularly, she even rang him while she was in the Buckingham Palace some two days after she went to Diagon Alley. Raimund was staying over at his cousin Veronica at her apartment in Charlottenburg in Berlin for a week. Sometimes aunt Cho would come along with them and show them around her favorite places to go in England, from muggle shopping centres in Glasgow to wonderful wizarding places like Godric's Hollow. In about two weeks, Jamie will have to say goodbye to hes dad, Raimund, Aslana and Johannes(in Jamie's relief) and her sort of afflicted life living like a muggle.
"Dad, how can i explain this to Raimund and the others?" Jamie asked her dad as they were driving with aunt Cho around London on a clear but cloudy afternoon. Jamie never told about this to her friends, even to her best friend Raimund. But she must find a potential excuse why she is leaving them behind in Hamburg to study in a British wizarding school. Raimund might will sad when she'll announce this to him, since Jamie is his only closest best friend for years and the only female friend that he can open up his feminine side with. They'd been together through tears and laughter for many years and they loved each other like siblings so that made Jamie worry about Raimund when she is gone even if she's away for probably a year, what will happen to Raimund? she badly thought.
"Hun, are you worried about Raimund?" Percy concernly asked because he feels like Jamie was worried about her long time best friend. "Who's Raimund?" aunt Cho asked curiously, "Jamie's muggle best friend from Hamburg." Percy said, then Jamie turned her head at him and nodded. "Well, don't worry about him. i'll just tell him that you're going to an English boarding school that is very isolated and got no internet connection. instead i'll tell him that if he got something that he needs to tell or bring you, he'll have to write you a letter or put in a parcel and give it to me. If he asked the address of the school, i'll just tell him that the school is very strict that parents are the only ones who are allowed to write to the students." Percy said, then aunt Cho added "But a lot of changes happened in the wizarding world that now you can surf the internet in Hogsmeade but you can't send an "email" to a muggle for security reasons.", "Gosh, i didn't know that..." Percy said and at the same time snapped his right fingers.
Night time came and Jamie was again surfing the internet in her macbook inside the hotel room. Everytime she would surf the internet, her heart pounds fast, her palms sweat and feel heavy on the inside especially when she is seeing the primary photo of Aslana in the arms of Johannes in her myspace. Even though, surfing the internet is a very painful thing to do for Jamie at the moment, she feels like she needed to surf the internet before she'll move away to Hogwarts-where her muggle gadgets like her macbook and T moble sidekick II would go haywire. Then some 15 minutes later, Jamie read on her myspace home that a new blog post was added on Aslana's myspace blog. Then, in a mad rush of curiousity and jealousy, Jamie quickly went to Aslana's blog and read it, her heart beats faster and her palms sweated more. Oh my gosh, (not) another blog post about Johannes!!! Jamie thought. Indeed, it was another blog post about Johannes, and there are so many comments on the blog post. and mind you that they are hate comments from angry and ignorant fans of Johannes, those who refused to believe and accept the hard truth about Johannes eventually having a girlfriend after more than five years since he became famous. Maybe everybody knows now that they're together? Jamie wondered. then she opened another tab in her browser and looked for "Johannes Trümper" in google. It was really true that Johannes had a girlfriend and it was really Aslana. The German news Bild announces it, as well the French celebrity tabloids, and of course, an article on Johannes by Bravo-a German teens magazine. Jamie might have never heard of these news since she was in England for two weeks and Die Argyles arent that much big in that country compared to France and Germany, but she never feel overwhelmed now that the news had now leaked across and confirmed. Jamie also feels sorry for the girls who just got to know this sad news that she knows for a long time. She went back to Aslana's blog and read the new blog post:
"How Johannes met Aslana"
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Now everyone knows that me and the very famous Johannes Trümper are together, but no one knows how and why we met and how we got together. now ladies and gentlemen, read along the story of how Johannes met and fell for me.
It all started in Hamburg some months ago when my friends Denise and Mara are clubbing along in St. Pauli when Johannes and his band, Die Argyles, went there after their hard-rocking, sold-out concert in Hamburg. While i was strutting out on the dance floor and my friends are drinking Margaritas and flirting out with some guys, Johannes went to the dance floor after drinking some cocktails in the bar. Of course im been such a big fan of his, i took this oppotunity to talk to him in person. He was there, wearing an Ed Hardy tshirt, a black Faith Connection cap, black Diesel jeans and Chanel shades with his hair down so many can't recognize him but i did. i went up near him and said "hi". he was having a frown upon his face until my cheerful "hi" made him smile and told me "hi" as well. then he asked me to dance with him and of course, i said yes so we danced around the floor, me lap dancing around him. Then my friends left early with their dates and (thankfully) Johannes' drunk and foolish bandmates, so that leaves only me and Johannes. Johannes brought me a drink and then we talked about things in our lives for hours. That is when i first got to know the shocking truth that Johannes has been ill-treated by his attention-seeking bandmates and greedy management. like i said on my last post, i feel sorry for Johannes with his bandmates, management, fans, paparazzis and such(the hell with them!!!). Speaking of hell-worthy fans, i told him about his other fans being obsessed with him like my freaky little schoolmate who calls herself Jamie from China or something(i think her real name is some Chinese something that is confusing as Confucius). i told Johannes that she thinks she can stand a chance with Johannes but hell no, she is wrong!! Johannes told me that he hates girls who are so like her- super ambitious, arrogant, smells like math books with joss incense and ... just plain weird. he said that her head is like hanging above the clouds like she feels she'll eventually become his girlfriend. "duh, as if she's my type, she definately not my type!!! what a stupid, little b*tch she is!" Johannes said as he drank his vodka sunrise, "Im so glad i never met her... i bet she's one of the worst lookin' girls i'll ever see in my whole entire life. i never knew there are fans as worse as her. if the other fans are so bad enough-chasing me around the malls, fainting when they see me, and other stupid things- what's more if i come across her?! anyway, i hate all of them-those fans, bleeh...." he added.
Then he took me in his hotel room and there i discovered Johannes, not androgynous and charming Johannes Trümper of Die Argyles who often appear on Viva or MTV on my TV. we first had a very hot and sensual make-out with each other by the bed. and then, we made love. my skin touches his and it was blissful. my old obsession turned into something i might preferably call love. Even though the Johannes that im always crazy about is different from this Johannes, i think im falling head over feet for him and i know he feels the same way.
Currently listening to: Lucky(DJ Kamikaze version) Britney Spears
"See i told you Johannes is lashing you out as well!!!" Percy angrily said as he got to read Aslana's blog post in Jamie's macbook, he was furious especially with Johannes' unfair judgement over Jamie. Jamie was uncontrollably sobbing on her aunt's shoulders for the past ten minutes since she read Aslana's tragic news about her. "There, there Jamie...at least he haven't said something worse than that... " Aunt Cho affectionately said. "My daughter never did anything bad to him and he never knew her in person as well so how dare he to call my Jamie something as harsh as that!!!" he exclaimed, his face very red with anger. "Perce, just calm down... only God can judge people. in fact i bet that Johannes was really insensitive and unethical...", "...or this Aslana had put some magic involved in this. She might have used Amortentia in Johannes' drink, magically modified the picture or any other things that made this look real." Aunt Cho suspected, making Percy and Jamie turn their heads on her as if she said something that makes her sound as if she was crazy and out of her mind. "What?! but Aslana's a muggle, auntie..." Jamie tearfully exclaimed "...so that means the former is more acceptable, it's more credible than the latter." she added. "Absolutely not..." Cho said, "Sometimes, wizards aren't allowed to call themselves as wizards to other fellow wizards especially if one is of minor age and has been punished by the Ministry of Magic for almost doing something as bad as throwing off an unforgivable curse. i know that is implemented by the German Ministry of Magic."
in Germany, you can do magic at muggle places just as long as you can explain or make a credible excuse to a muggle if one witnessed magic being done, like in Jamie's case when she opened her house's door with Raimund.
"Probably true. but Aslana- a witch? no way, nah-uh!!" Jamie bellowed. "Calm down Jamie, it doesn't mean what i said is true... i just kinda feel like Aslana is probably a witch. This news just popped out of nowhere and i read in Die Argyles' fan forums that no one, not even the management ever saw Johannes being with Aslana and there is no proof that Johannes himself confirmed it. So Aslana's prolly making this up-", "-what about the pictures?! some months ago, i saw her holding up a picture with her and Johannes in our school.", "Listen Jamie, i hate to tell you this but maybe she modified a picture with magic, so get it?" Aunt Cho exclaimed, then there was a moment of silence among Jamie, Percy and aunt Cho.
"Anyway, i really wished i never became a fan of Johannes at all. i regretted it very deep ...i wish i never been... so he wouldn't have those stupid, little, b*tches like me for fans. but it's a shame that one part of my life he gave me a kind of emotional gift with his songs when i was still trying to adjust with my strange, new life in Germany and especially the loss of my mum back in China. his poignant but powerful music assured me everything will be alright even if my life was flipped upside down... his sense of style made me feel that i am not the only one who is sporting my own style that used to be mocked at before Johannes became famous, therefore not making me feel weird anymore, his fashion sense is almost same as mine. and the kindness and gratefulness he showed for his fans in his interviews, concerts and such- made me feel that im important to him as a fan.... but all of these..." Jamie bellowed, making Percy and Cho look at each other with sympathy for a shamelessly sobbing Jamie in front of them. "Although Aslana was also infatuated with him from the start, it didn't stopped me from liking him and his music, but now i know the truth- Johannes is not real. he's just an act played by a poor but insensitive guy who.... just played out with my feelings and with loads of other fans." Jamie sniffled and wiped her tears, finally confessing all her chagrin and anguish out.
"Jamie, i am so sorry about Johannes." Raimund said on the phone as he and Jamie talked, "I already know about this ever since you arrived in London. i was in Berlin with my cousin Veronica at that time you called from Buckingham remember? As i opened my myspace that morning, well i was really mad when i read that, now i really hate Die Argyles and especially Johannes for calling you that. im not sure with Henri, Dean and Inah, prolly when they got to know this they'll start to hate him too. thought you might get hurt at the wrong time when i told you about Aslana's horrendous blog post. what a git Johannes is that told Aslana you're that, just don't get too depressed by what he said, it doesn't matter. i was kinda planning to tell you about it after you come back here but you got to know." , "i won't be coming back here for long really..." Jamie bitterly said, then Raimund gasped loudly and then there was a moment of silence. "What?! why... what....er... how come?" Raimund asked, his trembling voice and difficulty of finding words to say made it obvious that he was shocked by the news. "Long story, but one day i received a letter from a British boarding school that i was accepted in their school, i never took any tests though, in fact i never sent anything to them.", "Maybe it was sent to you by mistake...", "No, it was addressed to me- Jamie Chariss Wong- obviously there are no other Jamie Chariss Wong in this world other than me right?", "So, i'll never get to see you again for how long?" Raimund asked in a woeful voice, "maybe about a year, i promise i'll be back in summer or if im lucky, earlier than that- on Christmas break. C'mon you're not the only one who's sad about this-im also sad about it because we'll gonna be separated but don't you worry i'll write to you every week if i can. Dad will just give the letter to you coz only parents can write to students there, and if you had something for me, just hand it over to dad and he'll send it for me.", "then that's good..." Raimund said, "...now i understand everything, but im gonna miss you, Jamie." he added, his voice getting back to it's cheery self. whew... what a relief, Jamie thought. "and im gonna miss you too, Raims." she sweetly said.
Two weeks passed, Jamie was on Kings' Cross station with her dad and Aunt Cho on a monday morning. Jamie was pulling her trolley and Harry was sleeping soundly on the top of the trunk. "Sigh, september 1. this is it..." Jamie said as they come near platforms 9 and 10. In Germany there are also magical platforms like on old train stations in Munich, Berlin, Leipzig and Halle as well as subway stations in Kowloon leading to magical places like Hogwarts. Harry opened his green eyes and jumped over the trunk to aunt Cho's arms as Jamie prepared herself to run into platforms 9 3/4. she closed her eyes, counted one to three and ran as fast as she could. she opened her eyes and discovered herself to be in an old, Victorian train station full of witches and wizards but this time, it's also full of young, teenaged wizards like her and a very old fashioned train that had a sign "Hogwarts Express". Jamie gave her trolley to her dad and he unloaded it on the train and aunt Cho gave Harry back to Jamie. "You take care of yourself..." aunt Cho smiled, "Of course, i would...", "I can't believe it, my little Jamie is moving away from me for the first time, but hey at least you're 16 and two years from now you'll be an adult but don't fret Jamie dear, when i go home i might kick Johannes' arse faster than he can say "Nach Dir Kommt Nichts", or maybe not. But surely i'll make you and Raimund keep in touch with as much as possible." Percy assured, aunt Cho laughed and then said "Just forget about him and all those things. man, you really needed a break away from them. don't try to remember those things while you're in Hogwarts okay?", "Okay auntie, you'll write to me as well?", "ah of course, i'll be writing regularly, asking how are you doing there." Cho said, then the clock striked 11 and the train began to move, "Okay, bye dad... bye aunt Cho... see you maybe on the Christmas break or surely in summer." Jamie waved to them as she climbed inside the packed train, she made her way to the crowd and peered in a window, her dad and aunt waving at her and she waved back. moments later, Percy and Cho turned back and apparated after the Hogwarts train moves away from platform 9 3/4. Jamie carried her cat Harry on her left arm and then she quickly found an empty compartment. She sat by the windows and saw the scenery of London moving a bit fast. She then thought at least she's about to forsake her problems living life like a muggle. she's about to abandon Aslana, Johannes and their menacing friends and forget about them but Jamie also have to say goodbye to her faithful friends like Raimund, Henri, Dean and Inah but she won't have to forget about them at all. Feeling half eager but half anxious, she wondered what fate would bring her when she goes to start her new life in Hogwarts. of course there will be the good and the bad things but she wondered what are those in Hogwarts. She leaned her head on the glass and contemplated about how will her life be in Hogwarts as the train moved fast leaving the city of London behind, into the vast and green English contryside.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Chapter 6- A tale of two cities
Chapter 6- A tale of two cities
It was almost 5:00 in the afternoon and it's been 2 days since Jamie and her father Percy have left Hamburg and crossed the German borders to stay at Belgium first. They slept at a nice, avant-garde hotel in Brussels and they also had a morning excursion around(and took pictures on great monuments and places) before they got into the great European highways again that afternoon. Now they arrived in France some hours ago and now they're heading off to Paris. "How long are we gonna hang out in Paris dad?" Jamie asked while she was sitting on the back, reading a muggle novel about a very young criminal mastermind called Artemis Fowl with a few pillows beside her. Percy was on the driver's seat but with his hands busy tinkering with his digital camera and not on the wheels but were magically controlled smoothly by him. "Maybe around 3 days and after that we're heading to London and that's a long way to go." Percy turned his head to Jamie, "Oh, that's fine. I would love to shop around in Paris and see the Notre Dame and the Eiffel Tow-" Jamie said, until she got sight of a faraway Eiffel Tower, which got her jaw drop. "Oh my gosh, dad it's the Eiffel Tower!!!" Jamie pointed at the famous tower to her dad, who was also so awestruck that he stopped tinkering his digicam for a moment. "Oh yeah...it's the Tour De Eiffel. I used to study about it on my college days as an Architecture student. It was an early example of wrought-iron construction on a giant scale." Percy said.
"Oh my, we're getting near a toll gate, i should better get my hands on the wheels again or else the muggles will be frightened when they see me not holding the wheels and at the same time keeping it under control." he added, Jamie laughed a bit and she put her Artemis Fowl book down, reclined in the back seat and fell asleep.
Jamie woke up from a slightly deep sleep. after she stirred up her senses, she found out that she's in Paris already but they are stuck in a middle of a heavy traffic and a song by Avenged Sevenfold are playing on the car's stereo while her dad was singing along on the chorus. "yawn...Dad, are we in Paris already? and where are we gonna stay?" Jamie asked as she stretched her arms, "Yes hun, and i read a while ago in our Paris guide book, the best place to stay at in Paris for us is Galileo Hotel, which is on the 8th arrondissement-near Champs Elysees. Its' a charming place and i want to see how good the architecture is there." Percy said as they moved slowly along the traffic. They came near Champs Elysees 15 minutes later, crossed into a tony neighborhood and stopped at a sophisticated town-house hotel. "Okay, this is the place we're staying here in Paris." Percy smiled as they unloaded the bags they'll be needing for three days. They entered the very charming French hotel, went into the reception area and got their keys to room 501. "I thought the guy who owns this place was Galileo Galilei, but's it wonderful all the same..." Jamie said as she and her dad are on the elevator with their French bellboy who was carrying their bags. Then they went inside the room and the bellboy left them. "Kinda weird but that bellboy kinda look like your friend Henri, in a very uncanny way." Percy said as he slumped tiredly into a simple but elegant looking, comfy chair. Jamie was sitting on the glass-covered veranda and she was surfing the internet with her blue Mac Book. "But dad, Henri is French. Of course he'll naturally akin them." Jamie said.
for two and a half days they went to the Louvre, some fancy French shopping centres, Notre Dame, Arc De Triomphe and the Eiffel Tower. Percy was a bit of a "cam wh*re" when it comes to taking pictures of famous buildings that he had more pictures of the architectural stuffs than pictures of themselves in them, but you can find out a lot of interesting facts from him when it comes to architecture. "Notre Dame was about to be demolished when Victor Hugo's novel "The Hunchback of Notre Dame" got famous and that made the people plead not to destroy the cathedral and restore it. And that's how Notre Dame is still here." Percy said as they were wandering around Notre Dame, admiring it's beautiful, Gothic design. They also climbed on the top of Paris' Eiffel Tower later that afternoon, where Jamie felt she is suffering a bit of vertigo but got a hang of it when she saw the spectacular view of Paris. "Whoa, these breathtaking views really take my breath away or perhaps it is the lack of oxygen in this high altitude..." Jamie said in a wickedly witty way as she caught sight of Paris high above the Eiffel Tower. She took a seat on a bench beside her dad, "Dad, im gonna ring in Raimund on my phone and hear how he's doing." Jamie said as she took her black T Mobile Sidekick II and rang Raimund, like she does 2 times a day since they've gone away from Hamburg.
The last time Jamie rang him was this morning when she and her dad were having breakfast at a French cafe near their hotel and Raimund said he just woke up 5 minutes before she rang him and he's still in bed.
Finally, Raimund answered the overseas call from his best friend on his red T Mobile Sidekick II. "Hallo, Jamie..." Raimund said, "Hey Raimund, guess what? im on the top of the Eiffel Tower!!!" Jamie cheerfully said. Raimund squealed like a girl when he heard it and then "Oh my gosh, Jamie!!! im jealous but im happy for you...", "The sight here on top is breathtaking, but i think it's the lack of oxygen why my breath was lost when i saw Paris on top of this, hehe..." Jamie said amusingly, Raimund laughed too. "So, what are you doing right now? sleeping again?" Jamie asked, "Nothing much, watching TV and raiding the fridge as usual, but Ina's here a while ago in our place." Raimund said, "What did she do in your place?" Jamie questioned, "Eat lunch with me, my little sis, mum, dad and Dean..." Raimund answered, "So Dean's there as well. i bet he ate a lot, even some of the furniture.", "Yeah, that explains why Dean is ginormous..."Raimund said "...And just before Ina left, she had a conversation with Alyssa's pet cat Hermione in the living room. Funny, isn't it?", "With your little sister's cat??!! Oh my gosh, that is soooo ridiculous!!! Wonder what on earth are they talking about? The latest summer trends? " Jamie chortled.
The next morning, Jamie and her dad packed their bags, checked out and left Paris. It feels bad to leave the magnificent "City of Lights" behind but at least there's somewhere as better, London, their next destination. As they drove away in the sunny French expressway, Jamie and her dad are listening to music and talking about random things.
"You know Raims, it really feels awesome walking around Montparnasse and shopping around Champs Elysees. And La Defense was great, i think it's the place where TH took their music vid "1000 meere". and i can't believe the glass pyramid on the Louvre is designed by a Chinese architect...." Jamie babbled to Raimund as they are exchanging news on their phones. Jamie was somewhere on the road in Picardy while Raimund was on their way to Berlin with his little sister Alyssa and their 22 year old cousin Veronica. Half a day later, they had crossed the English channel from Calais and now they're in England, specifically resting in their hotel room in London. Her dad was sleeping soundly while she was surfing the internet with her mac on her bed.
Jamie opened her myspace and she saw a kind of notifications in her homepage that Aslana posted something in her blog. Jamie felt so curious about what Aslana posted so she went to Aslana's myspace blog. She was shocked when she saw another picture of Aslana with Johannes partying together in a Hamburg nightclub. Aslana was wearing an erogenous, black dress and studded stiletto heels and Johannes a black, Jaded by Knight tshirt and skinny jeans. They seemed to be dearly close to each other, Aslana gyrating around a seduced Johannes. Jamie then quickly read the whole post which is originally in German:
"Celebrating our month-sary!!!
mood: in love
music: Schrei, so laut du kannst!! by Die Argyles
Johannes took a short time off in his really busy schedule singing around for stupid and crazy fan girls that really make him sick. me, Johannes, Denise and Mara went to an awesome nightclub and we danced around and drank till around 11 PM. The picture above was taken by Denise, and we really look awesome. then me and Johannes left Denise and Mara and went to his place and there we "made love" till morning yesterday. He also confided during our "lovemaking" that he is so fed up with his fame that he wanted to quit and be with me but his bandmates and management wants to hold him coz they're all greedy and Johannes is famous. I really love Johannes beyond words and i don't want him to suffer and all that. He had so many personal problems beside his awful bandmates, greedy managers and those dumb and naive fan girls who thinks he's as pure and innocent as a saint. well, it's wrong that he's really innocent and good as he portrays-it's an act. so girls, better stop dreaming about him and get on with life, especially to the one freaky Canto fan girl who thinks his image on stage and off are the same. it's not my fault why he's faking himself.
and for the others stuffs, his bandmates are are getting lots of attention coz of him, the management is getting a lot of money because of him, and of course, who wouldn't forget those stupid, good-for-nothing fan girls and paparazzis who did nothing good but instead made my honey's life worse by chasing him down the road, getting crazy over him and those sort of stuffs. he has a life, and i feel sorry for him. But i know he loves me better than everyone else and im the reason why he still had the strenght to hang on tight. "
Jamie never felt this bad since her mother left and never saw her again. As well as a feeling of badness, she also felt betrayed, jealous, sorry and heartbroken at the same time about someone.
Jamie stood up, shaking and cold on the inside, then tears fell out from her deep brown eyes. She poured all of her bitter melancholy out silently, so her dad won't wake up finding her in so much distress. For many years now, she had been a total follower of Johannes Trümper but never saw him before. She loved his enchanting songs, his captivating androgynous looks, his unique sense of style and his witty personality. She even admitted to herself one time that her heart goes to Johannes but now, all of her admiration shattered since she first saw Aslana's proof a month ago and now, the scars deepened and healing it would be a hard challenge. Not only he belonged to someone she loathed for a long time but he was also known his personality was as fake as a bad rip-off Barbie Doll. Johannes Trümper is only an act and someone who is a tired and pitiful bloke plays as him. Aslana was right about her, the " freaky Canto fan girl" she referred to is obviously her, Jamie thinks Johannes is great but now she knew the horrible truth. Jamie was so disappointed because she fell for someone who only played her feelings like a toy and made her, for everyone else, "freaky".
"Face it Jamie, there is really no Johannes Trümper here on earth." she muttered to herself as she wiped the last few tears from her eyes. She was now standing on the terrace of her room, facing the sparkling, modern London skyscrapers. Then from a distance, two small dots came flying towards the terrace and Jamie wondered what are those. Then the dots got bigger and bigger until it was evident that they are owls carrying letters and they are flying towards her. Jamie wondered if the letters belonged to her or to her dad and of course, who sent those letters?
It was almost 5:00 in the afternoon and it's been 2 days since Jamie and her father Percy have left Hamburg and crossed the German borders to stay at Belgium first. They slept at a nice, avant-garde hotel in Brussels and they also had a morning excursion around(and took pictures on great monuments and places) before they got into the great European highways again that afternoon. Now they arrived in France some hours ago and now they're heading off to Paris. "How long are we gonna hang out in Paris dad?" Jamie asked while she was sitting on the back, reading a muggle novel about a very young criminal mastermind called Artemis Fowl with a few pillows beside her. Percy was on the driver's seat but with his hands busy tinkering with his digital camera and not on the wheels but were magically controlled smoothly by him. "Maybe around 3 days and after that we're heading to London and that's a long way to go." Percy turned his head to Jamie, "Oh, that's fine. I would love to shop around in Paris and see the Notre Dame and the Eiffel Tow-" Jamie said, until she got sight of a faraway Eiffel Tower, which got her jaw drop. "Oh my gosh, dad it's the Eiffel Tower!!!" Jamie pointed at the famous tower to her dad, who was also so awestruck that he stopped tinkering his digicam for a moment. "Oh yeah...it's the Tour De Eiffel. I used to study about it on my college days as an Architecture student. It was an early example of wrought-iron construction on a giant scale." Percy said.
"Oh my, we're getting near a toll gate, i should better get my hands on the wheels again or else the muggles will be frightened when they see me not holding the wheels and at the same time keeping it under control." he added, Jamie laughed a bit and she put her Artemis Fowl book down, reclined in the back seat and fell asleep.
Jamie woke up from a slightly deep sleep. after she stirred up her senses, she found out that she's in Paris already but they are stuck in a middle of a heavy traffic and a song by Avenged Sevenfold are playing on the car's stereo while her dad was singing along on the chorus. "yawn...Dad, are we in Paris already? and where are we gonna stay?" Jamie asked as she stretched her arms, "Yes hun, and i read a while ago in our Paris guide book, the best place to stay at in Paris for us is Galileo Hotel, which is on the 8th arrondissement-near Champs Elysees. Its' a charming place and i want to see how good the architecture is there." Percy said as they moved slowly along the traffic. They came near Champs Elysees 15 minutes later, crossed into a tony neighborhood and stopped at a sophisticated town-house hotel. "Okay, this is the place we're staying here in Paris." Percy smiled as they unloaded the bags they'll be needing for three days. They entered the very charming French hotel, went into the reception area and got their keys to room 501. "I thought the guy who owns this place was Galileo Galilei, but's it wonderful all the same..." Jamie said as she and her dad are on the elevator with their French bellboy who was carrying their bags. Then they went inside the room and the bellboy left them. "Kinda weird but that bellboy kinda look like your friend Henri, in a very uncanny way." Percy said as he slumped tiredly into a simple but elegant looking, comfy chair. Jamie was sitting on the glass-covered veranda and she was surfing the internet with her blue Mac Book. "But dad, Henri is French. Of course he'll naturally akin them." Jamie said.
for two and a half days they went to the Louvre, some fancy French shopping centres, Notre Dame, Arc De Triomphe and the Eiffel Tower. Percy was a bit of a "cam wh*re" when it comes to taking pictures of famous buildings that he had more pictures of the architectural stuffs than pictures of themselves in them, but you can find out a lot of interesting facts from him when it comes to architecture. "Notre Dame was about to be demolished when Victor Hugo's novel "The Hunchback of Notre Dame" got famous and that made the people plead not to destroy the cathedral and restore it. And that's how Notre Dame is still here." Percy said as they were wandering around Notre Dame, admiring it's beautiful, Gothic design. They also climbed on the top of Paris' Eiffel Tower later that afternoon, where Jamie felt she is suffering a bit of vertigo but got a hang of it when she saw the spectacular view of Paris. "Whoa, these breathtaking views really take my breath away or perhaps it is the lack of oxygen in this high altitude..." Jamie said in a wickedly witty way as she caught sight of Paris high above the Eiffel Tower. She took a seat on a bench beside her dad, "Dad, im gonna ring in Raimund on my phone and hear how he's doing." Jamie said as she took her black T Mobile Sidekick II and rang Raimund, like she does 2 times a day since they've gone away from Hamburg.
The last time Jamie rang him was this morning when she and her dad were having breakfast at a French cafe near their hotel and Raimund said he just woke up 5 minutes before she rang him and he's still in bed.
Finally, Raimund answered the overseas call from his best friend on his red T Mobile Sidekick II. "Hallo, Jamie..." Raimund said, "Hey Raimund, guess what? im on the top of the Eiffel Tower!!!" Jamie cheerfully said. Raimund squealed like a girl when he heard it and then "Oh my gosh, Jamie!!! im jealous but im happy for you...", "The sight here on top is breathtaking, but i think it's the lack of oxygen why my breath was lost when i saw Paris on top of this, hehe..." Jamie said amusingly, Raimund laughed too. "So, what are you doing right now? sleeping again?" Jamie asked, "Nothing much, watching TV and raiding the fridge as usual, but Ina's here a while ago in our place." Raimund said, "What did she do in your place?" Jamie questioned, "Eat lunch with me, my little sis, mum, dad and Dean..." Raimund answered, "So Dean's there as well. i bet he ate a lot, even some of the furniture.", "Yeah, that explains why Dean is ginormous..."Raimund said "...And just before Ina left, she had a conversation with Alyssa's pet cat Hermione in the living room. Funny, isn't it?", "With your little sister's cat??!! Oh my gosh, that is soooo ridiculous!!! Wonder what on earth are they talking about? The latest summer trends? " Jamie chortled.
The next morning, Jamie and her dad packed their bags, checked out and left Paris. It feels bad to leave the magnificent "City of Lights" behind but at least there's somewhere as better, London, their next destination. As they drove away in the sunny French expressway, Jamie and her dad are listening to music and talking about random things.
"You know Raims, it really feels awesome walking around Montparnasse and shopping around Champs Elysees. And La Defense was great, i think it's the place where TH took their music vid "1000 meere". and i can't believe the glass pyramid on the Louvre is designed by a Chinese architect...." Jamie babbled to Raimund as they are exchanging news on their phones. Jamie was somewhere on the road in Picardy while Raimund was on their way to Berlin with his little sister Alyssa and their 22 year old cousin Veronica. Half a day later, they had crossed the English channel from Calais and now they're in England, specifically resting in their hotel room in London. Her dad was sleeping soundly while she was surfing the internet with her mac on her bed.
Jamie opened her myspace and she saw a kind of notifications in her homepage that Aslana posted something in her blog. Jamie felt so curious about what Aslana posted so she went to Aslana's myspace blog. She was shocked when she saw another picture of Aslana with Johannes partying together in a Hamburg nightclub. Aslana was wearing an erogenous, black dress and studded stiletto heels and Johannes a black, Jaded by Knight tshirt and skinny jeans. They seemed to be dearly close to each other, Aslana gyrating around a seduced Johannes. Jamie then quickly read the whole post which is originally in German:
"Celebrating our month-sary!!!
mood: in love
music: Schrei, so laut du kannst!! by Die Argyles
Johannes took a short time off in his really busy schedule singing around for stupid and crazy fan girls that really make him sick. me, Johannes, Denise and Mara went to an awesome nightclub and we danced around and drank till around 11 PM. The picture above was taken by Denise, and we really look awesome. then me and Johannes left Denise and Mara and went to his place and there we "made love" till morning yesterday. He also confided during our "lovemaking" that he is so fed up with his fame that he wanted to quit and be with me but his bandmates and management wants to hold him coz they're all greedy and Johannes is famous. I really love Johannes beyond words and i don't want him to suffer and all that. He had so many personal problems beside his awful bandmates, greedy managers and those dumb and naive fan girls who thinks he's as pure and innocent as a saint. well, it's wrong that he's really innocent and good as he portrays-it's an act. so girls, better stop dreaming about him and get on with life, especially to the one freaky Canto fan girl who thinks his image on stage and off are the same. it's not my fault why he's faking himself.
and for the others stuffs, his bandmates are are getting lots of attention coz of him, the management is getting a lot of money because of him, and of course, who wouldn't forget those stupid, good-for-nothing fan girls and paparazzis who did nothing good but instead made my honey's life worse by chasing him down the road, getting crazy over him and those sort of stuffs. he has a life, and i feel sorry for him. But i know he loves me better than everyone else and im the reason why he still had the strenght to hang on tight. "
Jamie never felt this bad since her mother left and never saw her again. As well as a feeling of badness, she also felt betrayed, jealous, sorry and heartbroken at the same time about someone.
Jamie stood up, shaking and cold on the inside, then tears fell out from her deep brown eyes. She poured all of her bitter melancholy out silently, so her dad won't wake up finding her in so much distress. For many years now, she had been a total follower of Johannes Trümper but never saw him before. She loved his enchanting songs, his captivating androgynous looks, his unique sense of style and his witty personality. She even admitted to herself one time that her heart goes to Johannes but now, all of her admiration shattered since she first saw Aslana's proof a month ago and now, the scars deepened and healing it would be a hard challenge. Not only he belonged to someone she loathed for a long time but he was also known his personality was as fake as a bad rip-off Barbie Doll. Johannes Trümper is only an act and someone who is a tired and pitiful bloke plays as him. Aslana was right about her, the " freaky Canto fan girl" she referred to is obviously her, Jamie thinks Johannes is great but now she knew the horrible truth. Jamie was so disappointed because she fell for someone who only played her feelings like a toy and made her, for everyone else, "freaky".
"Face it Jamie, there is really no Johannes Trümper here on earth." she muttered to herself as she wiped the last few tears from her eyes. She was now standing on the terrace of her room, facing the sparkling, modern London skyscrapers. Then from a distance, two small dots came flying towards the terrace and Jamie wondered what are those. Then the dots got bigger and bigger until it was evident that they are owls carrying letters and they are flying towards her. Jamie wondered if the letters belonged to her or to her dad and of course, who sent those letters?
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