Running through the monsoon without Bill

What would you feel if the guy whom you are dying to meet since you were 13 is not the guy whom you used to look up to and admire from afar?
I would feel really bad of course, if that happens to me. Actually, that situation could probably happen this year and unfortunately, my favorite singer/ crush/ style icon Bill Kaulitz, is no longer the visual kei hair-donning German singer whom i used to love because his sense of style mirrors mine. Instead, he became a different person and i don't like the way he changed.

Late last year, Bill told VJ Chino of MYX that Tokio Hotel plans to perform in the Philippines this 2010. By then his style was a bit okay(look at "World behind my wall" vid) but he was already different from the Bill i used to love when i was 13 up to 15. Okay, he might be beginning to change shockingly when i was 15, but all those changes are still tolerable and little compared to the rate he has now. Back then when i was 14, he used to loathe eating veggies and that was one of the many reasons why i like him. Now look at him, so skinny as a stick and he's now a vegetarian. The reason why that ostrogoth as well as his kambal sa uma and Georg became exclusive veggie eaters, i don't know. After that, Bill began to change so differently that i don't recognize him, especially Bill Kaulitz my fashion icon. I can't believe Bill ditched his already awesome tshirts, neat leather jackets, diesel pants and adidas sneaks for some outrageously flamboyant clothes like Dsquared outfits and Rick Owen high heels. Then he ditched his super cool visual kei hairstyle for a sucky hairstyle ala Colonel Sponz. Bill thinks his style became more masculine than before but i say no because he's wrong. I shout "Niet, niet" over and over on his statement because more people mistook him as a gay in his new style than before. He's a really dumb dumbass. He thinks that he's the coolest rockstar ever with his very gay new style, but nooooooo... he looks grotesque and revolting that i regret lusting after him. If i see him like that when he sings here in the Philippines, i will throw a thick business book at him, pour acid on his ugly face or tell him that his crush Edward Cullen will never date him because he's got himself an ugly, colonel Sponz hairstyle.

Why can't Bill be like other rockstars instead? Why does he have to be different from Billie Joe Armstrong, Yael Yuzon or even Gerard Way? Why does he have to wear such extravagant and flamboyant clothes even if he just walk around the streets? Why do Tokio Hotel have to have a really strange concert presence and sing emo songs?
Im so disappointed, he thinks he is so cool while in fact, he isn't. If he goes on like this, someday he'll have an infliction on his stomach, body mass, lungs, heart, blood pressure, nervous system or his whole integumentary system.

It makes me so sad that i broke down into tears every time i think about him. Maybe the reason why he looks so revolting for me is that, maybe, in my conscience's opinion, it's because God is punishing me for lusting after that guy. I abuse my admiration for Bill so much that it made God dismayed. He made Bill change like that so He would show me how dismayed he was with me. What i may be doing may be a natural thing for teenagers like me, but maybe im taking it too far that it's hurting Him. Maybe if i lessen(or stop a bit if possible), Bill will get better. Maybe when he get better, i'll see the wonderful, meat-eating, childish Bill i used to adore. If not, then i have to accept it(seriously) and move on.
So i hope when Tokio Hotel goes here in the Philippines, Bill wears his hair nice and long while in a awesome looking Dsquared tshirt, skinny jeans and black boots or sneaks. No Colonel Sponz hairstyle, huge feather-whatever or leather pants business. Or else i will make the hullabaloos from Plants vs. Zombies spit on him until he falls like the Dancing Zombie(or aka Michael Jackson).

Some stardollar saving tips for Superstars (and other tips as well)

Have you been short on stardollars lately? Seen a new collection of LE on sale on starplaza but couldn't afford one since your money is just.... *hides* 1 stardollar? Fret not, for i am happy to share some tips on saving money in stardoll (as well as apply what i've learned from my Economics classes). -yeehee!!!

1. Make a "shopping list"
when you become superstar, browse around on the starplaza, minishop as well as the magazine of stardoll(to check out upcoming clothes that you might like). Then open up another tab and go again to stardoll. Then list out all the clothes and things you want in the starblog. Then allot how much you would spend a day on buying things for how long you're gonna be a superstar. First, priotize the rarer ones, sales as well as the ones that were about to be kicked out from the starplaza real soon. Like i made one that will last me for a month and the budget for all those were around less than 150 stardollars- including some DKNYs that were on starplaza.

example of a shopping list-shortened version-:
(1 month superstar with 250 stardollars)
examples of prices on the things listed that were for example on sale in the starplaza
Faith Hill dress- 15 SD Hot Buys flats- 5 SD
Magic books- 3 SD Inspired by Karin Feller necklace- 5SD
Idoru tshirt- 6 SD Dot white eyeshadow- 5 SD
Heidi Klum necklace- 8 SD Lady Gaga bag- 5 SD
Maggie Cheung dress- 8 SD DKNY bag- 12

day 1 - Faith Hill dress (15-5=10)<--- the one on the parenthesis is your expected spenditure
2 - make up table+ Idoru tshirt (8+6= 14-5=9)
3 - magic books+ hot buys flats+ Maggie Cheung dress (3+5+8=16-5=11)
4- Lady Gaga bag+Inspired by Karin Feller necklace (5+5= 10-5=5)
5- Dot white eyeshadow+ DKNY bag+ Heidi Klum necklace (5+12+8= 25-5=20)
etc...

tip: It's also a bonus if you play play-for-stardollars games that gives you 5 stardollars to spend on for the day. It saves you 5 stardollars from your spenditures. Also, writing or even reading your starblog helps increase starpoints.

Why make a shopping list?
Like in everyday life, having a shopping list helps you out economically since it makes you focus more on what you really need(but in the case of stardoll-wants) than having without since without a shopping list, it might tempt you to buy things that will either mismatch with your clothes or furnitures on the house or something that will end up not being worn for a long time and won't be bought hotly by starbazaar raiders after it phases out on the starplaza.

2. play everyday on Play and Earn games. Something really good- Math challenge. not only it helps you get stardollars but also it helps you in school by enriching your math skills
or if you are really a math whiz or just hate math, try out the Globetrotter game especially if you want to be aquianted with the countries in the world and where Turkmenistan is.

3. Invest on good stardoll stuffs that could potentally be a rare in the future. If you are a superstar, buy some DKNY that you can afford or some good looking voile dress that you could use in the long term, get tired of wearing it someday that you decided to sell it for a high price because of it's demand. The more supplies/wares/awesome stardoll stuffs you had, the higher the price should be. But when the demand is really... demanding, lower it up a little bit to bust out competition with other superstars selling it. Just make the deducted stardollars up by selling a not so rare dress with the price you deducted. That kind of strategies were called in economics "Law of supply" and "law of demand". The former meaning if the supply is plenty, the producers should put up a high price so that more money will come. Then the latter means that if the demand is high, the lower the price should it become so that more customers could think of buying from you than the others since it would save them more money.

4. Join competitions- especially those competitions made by stardoll. Make a very beautiful scenery, paperdoll album, a very nice suite or medoll. Also join those themed competitions by stardoll like the ones in the stardoll magazine.

5. Be wary of cheats- especially those "free 1,000,000 stardollars, free rare, free mka, free dkny" offers. Who knows those were attempts on hacking you. If you fall into their trap, you might lose than gain. Quite ironic?

Tokio Hotel on being fashionable against AIDS

Tokio Hotel, along with other awesome artists and celebs like Katy Perry, N.E.R.D-oh Cj, your idol...-,  Dita Von Teese, Yoko Ono,  Cyndi Lauper and such collaborated with clothing store H&M in a campaign against AIDS called "Fashion against AIDS" by designing shirts, dresses and other clothes. I read from a magazine that artists like Rihanna, MCR and Maroon 5 joined the campaign last year and did the same thing TH and the others did. 

All the materials are made of organic cotton and 25% of the profit will go to AIDS/HIV prevention groups.  the designs will be on over 1000 H&M stores worldwide on may 28.

Tokio Hotel's collaboration with the store is a tshirt with a skull design with the text "Rock hard... F*** safe"(the asterisks are TH logos) 

Thanks to Tokio Hotel America fans club for making me know that....